There is something abt her.... I just can' t get, what it is (cairo)

That's who I feel abt her. I will start cursing as soon as I arrive at the airport, but I will also be sitting in tears on my way out of this city.
Cairo can drives me out of my mind in seconds. The taxi drivers, police officers, the traffic, even the people on the streets, can get me out of control and yes sometimes I will stand there totally surprised and can't believe that little peaceful me, can react like that. But as soon as I'm just getting fed up and frustrated and just want to turn away and never come back , I will start having this strange feeling in me.... Yes I will be pist of, but I don't want to leave .... Yet!!
What's amazing abt Cairo is, that she is so real... She is life. bad and good... rich and poor...weak and strong. You will meet all kind of people at one place.... All the ideologies at one place.
Her nights are just like magic..... When everyone has gone to sleep....When the streets are empty..... When you can hear yourself breathe.... at that moment, Cairo makes you feel as if, she is all yours.... I guess that's what keeps me on.
Cheers.....
Linera

Do he loves me?!

That was my biggest concern as a teen. What was good abt being a teen is, that I knew exactly what I felt abt the people around me. Yes, I knew when I was in love.... when it was real and not. I knew when I disliked one and when I was OK with him or her. I was simple and that was a gift. Yeah, my biggest concern back than was, what THEY felt abt ME...
Now, I' m older, a little bit wiser and with some experience behind me. I can tell when people are real and when they' re not, some who, real feelings touches me.
I don' t know.... with time, people seems to get less complicated... But the sad thing is, that for a reason or another, I' m suddenly having problems with my own feelings!!
Yes, I do know that he loves me. I can see' t, feel' t.... but do I love HIM.... I know that I did once... but, what abt now...
Sometimes I will feel in love... for an hour or two and than.... it's gone away.... and I will ask me self, why?. Why can' t I just say, yes I DO love you and will be with you... or no mate... Sorry, can' t do.
Trust me, I' m not playing games with others feelings... I'm not that kind of a woman... but honestly I really can' t tell, what i do feel anymore.
The"funny" thing is, that I' ve started douting, that I can have real feelings for anyone anymore... the one or two hours feeling in love, could just be an opportunity for me to feel alive. But how can someone become so empty. Am' I that? Or do I have a problem, with facing me self, me feelings and convincing myself, that I don' t know what I feel abt others, is my way to escape that...
Oh my God... I sound disturb even to myself.
Thanks for lesening
With "love"
Linera

kan ikke falde i søvn ... snøft

kl er næsten 4 am og jeg kan ikke falde i søvn.... ved ikke hva egypten gør ved mig... har vendt op og ned på dag og nat... det er bare ikke så smart når man har et barn på de små 3 år og er oppe hverdag kl 7 am... anyway... jeg tror at jeg vil kunne købe fra det, at være på, ved at tage hende på grand hayat, så kan hun lege i vandt imens Mama tager sig en lille lur...
ej jeg tror at jeg vil prøve at ligge mig til at sove.... måske vil det lykkes mig nu.. bon nuit
Linera